I did it!!

I did something last night that I have been wanting to do for a few years now. I got my nose pierced!! "Kent" always said he didn't think I would look good with it and that I would look like a slut. He said only some girls could pull it off and I wasn't one of them. Well, like so many other things, he was incredibly wrong! I think it looks wonderful!!! I finally got up the nerve to do it because I have been feeling extremely motivated and inspired over the last month. I can finally call myself a "recovering" people pleaser, instead of still trying to shed it. I am finally doing and saying things that reflect I finally am past caring what they say or think about me.

The next step is later today. I am going to get my hair done. Going without child support for the last year shows in more than one way. My hair hasn't seen a pair of scissors in about 8 or 9 months now. The only color it has seen is a $3 bottle of hair color from Wally World. But today, I'm going to an actual salon and getting a cut and lots of color! Going for the black, brown and blonde multidimensional look. Along with the nose piercing, it's going to look great!

So I apparently haven't gotten better at sticking to journaling!

My entire life I have tried to get a journal and stick to writing in it on a regular basis. I never succeeding, and it doesn't look like I'm much better now! Nevertheless, I am going to keep this thing up, no matter how sporadically.

The weight loss has been slow because I haven't been feeling very motivated. At least I'm not going in the other direction. Staying in one place on the scale is also a new skill I have acquired.

Feeling motivated today!

Today started out a little rough. After snoozing my alarm until 7:15, Thomas actually woke up before me. I rushed to work to barely make it there on time. I still managed to pack my "healthy" (I try to avoid the word diet) lunch. I worked out last night at my apartment complex, and I'm feeling it slightly this morning. However, I'm not letting it stop me! After this post, I'm headed upstairs to do at least 30 minutes of cardio. My date last night with KP was canceled due to parenting logistics. :-( I was really looking forward to it. He's a deputy in a local county and has 2 daughters that are slightly older than Thomas. We've been talking for about a month now, but haven't actually gone on a date yet. I was disappointed, but it was out of his control, so of course I don't hold it against him.

I need a scale. I haven't weighed since last week at the doctor. My younger sister and I are both trying to lose weight together, so we are doing measurements tomorrow. I took "before" pictures while at my heaviest last year, which was a whopping 320 lbs. I'm 5'11", but that's still a TON of weight! At the doctor last week, I was 280. I haven't weighed since then, so I'm not sure what I am today. I'm going to look for my old measurements when I go home tonight. Tomorrow, I'll be able to fill you in on the largest ever, the current, and the goals. My goal weight is 175, but more importantly, a size 10/12.

Dinner tonight will consist of grilled chicken, green beans, salad, and water (or probably Crystal Light).

**I got some good news this morning. My sister thought she was having a miscarriage last night, but it turns out the baby is fine!!!